I haven't talked much about the progress I've made on my writing during the past month because it's been a struggle. I love my current project's characters; I can hear their voices and I know their personalities. But what I can't seem to see is their actual story. Yes, I know the general plot points, the details of the setting, the characters' goals and motivations, and the solutions and final ending, but how all of these things interlace continues to escape me.
Deadlines can be wonderful things. They can help push you to accomplish more within a specified timespan than what you would find the motivation to do on your own. However, they can also make you feel pressured to put less time into a project than what you would like to give in order to finish it within a decided period.
I feel like I got absolutely nothing done this past weekend. I spent most of my time reading, playing games, and reconnecting with music that I haven't listened to in years. But overall, I made no progress on any of my creative projects. Does this mean my weekend was wasted? That depends on who you ask...
This weekend I found myself spending some unexpected time with my current writing project. Friday afternoon I met up with some of my teammates for this year's GISHWHES scavenger hunt, and after several hours of hanging out with other creative people, I felt the need to push my own creativity for the rest of the weekend.
For me, this weekend has proven that having multiple interests and hobbies helps boost my productivity. At times I have struggled to balance all of my hobbies within my limited free time, but that was not the case during the past few days. I'm still heartbroken about my current job situation, and such feelings often kill my creativity. But I refuse to let my sorrow take over this time.
Over the weekend, I attended another Supernatural Convention. The SPNFamily is incredible in their inclusiveness and their caring. All weekend we heard the messages encouraging us to support one another and to not fear asking for help when we need it, that it's okay to not be okay.
For those of us engaged in creative pursuits (writing, music, photography, visual arts, etc.), free time is not often free. For us, free time is a valuable commodity that we rarely have enough of to satisfy our minds and desires. While some of us are known to procrastinate more frequently than we'd like to admit, when we are in a creative burst, there is no safe way to get between us and our passions. However, life sometimes demands that we take a break.